Straight from the Hospital Suite in Muntinlupa

I have been reading through my other friends' blogs. I realized that they had a great time of their lives while they are still in high school. Man, I know i have been with them for awhile, but i realized how much time and effort my trainings, responsibilities AS the oldest daughter and trying to make up some time for my old friends has torn me away from my school people. No wonder i feel bitter at school, well at class mostly :)). Oh well, I can handle myself pretty well though, not as bitter as i used to be, Thank God for that Shrink. Now, time: and tearing it out for friends. I also realized a funny fact. I don't hang out with them unless there is a project to work on or something. I only hang out with my non-school friends. Am i biased or what? Oh well, I don't feel the need of this casual outings anyway, I don't wanna waste money, I let my parents do that for me. And i am much closer to my non school friends. Bahhahaah :))

I am veering off the blog topic. Anyways, I am seriously worried with my grandmother (called NANAY hereafter). She is my G-ma from the mother's side. A very loving woman who can manipulate my mom's decision and has been there ever since I was born. She never really treated me like I am supposed to be the "blessed oldest daughter" I feel like a normal kid that she is used to contend with. She's the kind of person that even at the frail age of 70, can still play badminton with the Bad on it. The person who would let me fall asleep on her lap and then pull a blanket over me so not to wake me up to go to my room. She sneaks candy if i need it and is a sensible easygoing woman knows how to handle a big knife and chop woods and still discpline all of 10 kids who are my aunts and uncles. I love her a lot, and i never feel like i have to prove myself or change me. Oh damn grandmother's love. She's supposed to be in ICU now, and seeing her like that breaks my heart. I seriously wanna stay with her but alas, mom wont let me. I love you G-MA, fight!