If it has wings , it will fly away

"because if you give it wings, it wants to fly away without you knowing"- billy merrell

It means, that if you gave it a chance to go, it will depart.
I wonder why, this always happens to people who often have grown closer to you than more than you expect. And by this i mean my friend(s).

Yes, friends. I seem to get that whomever reads this blog may refer to a significant presence of a person dependent on the person they think i am referring to. Well, its not. (good riddance)

I know myself well enough to know that i am not the most fun person around. I have a hard time intertwining with people who could possibly be my friends.But i take pride that i keep the few of my closest friends to a much later time than most.
For me it take time to be real friends no matter what the situation can possibly undertake. You may have saved my life when i have known you for 3 measly seconds, yes you have my trust but not my friendship. The thing is, once i have created a steady bond with a person, i make it a point that it's permanent. My close friends know that I am not very demonstrative, but i will stay at the middle of the storm(cliche?).

It saddens me to see the one of the close people to try and break the bonds of friendship. I may seem angry when that occurs but in real time, i am feeling really bad about the situation (i guess anger is the main drive of my prime emotions). The person seems to drift away, i started to feel indifferent to those people that i start to wonder.."where did all the time go?". I get to know them well but they change. And as hard as i may try, i can't seem to bring it all back together like the way it used to be.

Maybe, i had the most opposite impression of that friendship after all. Maybe i came in to strong or to light, depending on that person. We may not be as close as i thought we would have been. I guess i will just fill my head with maybe's and what did's until i get a chance to converse with them.(which seems so unlikely describing the unsettling nature they have towards me).

Friendship is a magical thing....its the start of one helluva life!"